The day he almost attended a banned books event because I asked him to

It is another twilight.
The moazzin belts out azaan like his life
depends on it, an executioner standing under the pulpit,
reaching for his feet.
Orange poppies on a kurta set strewed on the clothesline
hurt my eyes like a lone lamppost on a dark street.
Maybe it’s the faded grey background of the fabric.
The immediate present makes the past seem pale,
even as the two continue to imprint on each other.
I would wait for hours for your nod of acknowledgement,
now, a growing suspicion that you were never a good person.
238.607 miles away, he could be witnessing
forbidden history at my bidding. A bright poppy
blinding me to my ashen existence.
The font in which I scrawl “improve your handwriting”
defeats the purpose.
The grading is endless, the colours are too.
The past cannot catch up with me.

The photo shows Fatima Farhad smiling into the camera, wearing large glasses, brown hair falling below her shoulders, dressed in a black top and black coat, standing against an off-white wall.

Fatima Farhad teaches IBDP English language-and-literature at a school in Islamabad. She is currently studying the rhythms of urban life as part of her postgrad research work. 

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